Mothers Inc

Apr 7, '09 10:54 PM

Teens, yeah, that's what I heard over the radio. The difference with teens nowadays is that they are able to "blog" their feelings. I told myself, why not try it on for size. There could be something propitious in there.

Heheh, I learn more now from my kids than from books. I continue to read books though, simply because I can always read them whenever I want to, unlike my kids. From my husband, on the other hand, I get precious wisdom through his actions and how he handles urgent or difficult matters. I get to see his views and values based on how he responds to situations.

Wisdom. Now that is what I continue to pray for before plunging to just about anything . . . wisdom for my kids, my husband and myself. If you have wisdom, you can go on doing things confidently. I am aware that my working efficiently, harder and even faster may result to me ending up somewhere I don't truly want to be. It may not be the right path, for the time being, but not in the final assessment.
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Ok, ok, don't get bored. I had to write you know. That's what my mentor, Ms. Loree Mante of DBM Consulting advised me after retiring in 2003. You know what? My former employer offered this DBM program for retiring Executives for a significant dollar price, o di ba? That's why I did my best to get the most out it. It's worth it ha. Loree is superb in her work. She has helped me cope with early retirement. Actually, I wasn't expecting any help, for I believe there was no problem, but you do not need a problem pala to accept help and support. You just have to be grateful and confirm that there is a reason for everything. There is good and valuable things in each person. With others you can find gems, in them and in you. Again, thanks Loree!

Comfort rooms, yan, yan ang binabanatan ko ngayon, but I am able to sit down and compose this kasi nag-iipon ako ng tubig sa banyo. Yup, getting out of my comfort zones na rin. Kaso, I start to tire doing my chores, sabi ko grabe nakakapagod ito a. Oo, excited ako may bagong cleaning brush ako with a long handle. I got to test it and bravo, it serves its very purpose. Gawin mo raw exciting ang task at hand. Aray, ayan, naumpog noo ko sa handle . . . hindi sa handle ng brush, sa handle ng pinto ng CR, solid bakal pa naman, magandang klase, kaya magandang klase rin bukol ko. Sakit ha.

Teka, teka, at teka pa . . . todo emote pa ko e. Nakakapagod naman talaga e. I thought, mabuti pa yata yung nag-o-office tulad ng husband ko or nag-sku-school like my sons. Kasi naman, nagpapakahirap ako dito maglinis ng buong bahay, e buti kung may nakakapansin man lang kung na-escoba ko ng husto ang mga singgit singit ng tiles na ito o ng kaloob-looban ng bowls, o sa pag-i-is-is ko ng mga timba, tabo at jabonera. Hay kapagod, naiintindihan ba nila ang dinaranas ko dito sa bahay ??? . . . Kaso eto na si "Bro." . . . bumubulong.

Oo raw, kung paano ko naiintindihan ang dinanas Niya sa pasyon Niya sa kalbaryo. Lagot. Naisip ko, naku po e wala nga itong hirap ko compared dun. Ngek! Tsaka di ko rin naman alam pinagdaraanan ng mga tulad ng anak at asawa ko, surely may mga super-hirap moments rin sila. Kaya pala tama yung "seek to understand before seeking to be understood." E, baka mas mabibigat pa dalahin ng the likes ni hubby at ng mga kiddos. Baka di ko kaya mga krus nila. Mahirap ng mag-compare. At least, yung daily cross ko sure na kaya ko kasi, kahit feel ko na di ko kaya, my belief remains na the Lord will not assign a cross na di natin kaya. He will provide us with the strength we need at times of trials.

Tsaka, minsang nasa complaining mood ako, remember ko, nagpapasalamat pala ako at nakakapaglinis na ko ng bahay. Kasi for more than 2 months I was nurturing an injury. Hindi ko matapak paa ko. Mas grabe pala ang wala kang magawa kasi di kaya ng katawan mo. Buti na nga lang I have a sister who pushes me to the doctor. Also, my mother, a cancer-survivor, has become my true inspiration, kasi wala masyadong complain yun, samantalang hirap ng chemotheraphy ordeal. Envision the experience of losing your hair, darkening of your nails, drying up of your skin, hilo, nausea, etc. O sumasama ba pakiramdam mo, binabasa mo pa lang yan.

Hay, hay, Inday. So eto, kuskos muna. Ayan, super clean ever ang mga banyo. O say, "mga", mga banyo ha. Di ba blessing yan, ang daming banyo, at ang laki ng tahanan. Okay yan until the day you find yourself doing the cleaning of the whole house yourself, by yourself, heheh. Oops, not complaining ha. Blessing nga di ba. Many dream of having a house of their own, yung iba nga basta may matutuluyan lang. Ok, ok ala-Santino drama na yan.

At di ka ba magpapasalamat at nakakapaglinis ka, say ko sa self ko. Aba, you can be stuck to tutoring your kids pero hindi 'day, kasi they don't ask for your brains to support them, only your wallet for their allowance.

Kasi naman I want to do everything at the same time and be perfect. Kaso mo, I end up stressed-out, frustrated, with unfinished work, so far from perfect, and close to super annoying. I want to be right pero for whom? A verse crossed my mind, "Martha, Martha, you are worried over so many things, but only one thing is important." Ayun na nga.

The other reason why I am writing this down is for a need in the future. At least I know that somewhere in my lifetime I am at a right state of mind. Later, on something not so good may happen and I will slip back into a negative mode. It's like cleaning the house, sorry for the analogy, I just happen to be cleaning right? After you have polished the house clean and placed everything in their proper places, warm bodies arrive and we all get to contribute in building-up a mess once more.

Ganun rin sa isip natin. After some reflections, you are rewarded with a mind that you have placed in the right perspective. As trials come and go, it kinda end up in an entropy again. There is that need for re-organizing, feeding of fresh nurturing thoughts, and some strong detergent-like principles to get you back to the proper God-pleasing state of mind.

Live, learn and love . . . that I remember.
P.S. Papa, kids, dogs . . . luv 'ya guys.
Give thanks with a grateful heart.
Ikaw, what's on your mind, heheh. Have to go and get my dogs and myself a bath.
Mothers Inc
Today is Easter Apr 11, '09 10:05 PM

I feel so small, insect-like really, reading my first blog, full of written complaints, huh. Something just washed me this Holy Week and after watching Bo Sanchez on TV yesterday.

A personal discovery hit me, I want to be praised for things I do ( well, don't all of us do.) Also, there are two persons I want so much to please. I have high regards of their opinion of me. Yes, I value what my mother and my husband think of the things I do. I'm not sure why. Probably because most of their decisions turn out right.

I have just finished cleaning the house and am left with some free time (ayoko pang gawin my paperworks, Sunday naman e).

Good for me, I finally came in terms with myself regarding housework. I carry it out now with an open heart and mind. Why? I offer it to Him, and in so doing, I perform it to the best of my ability, not just pwede na. I do that extra scrub, that double washing with detergent, until I am satisfied it looks superb (yung kitang-kita ang ebidensiya na dumaan sa paglilinis.) I do tire, but just physically. There is that certain peace and joy after seeing it done.

How timely. I do feel resurrected, and what do you know, it's Easter today. Thank God!!!